Poem, Portage, 10-11-2011

por·tage/ˈpôrtij/
Noun:
The carrying of a boat or its cargo between two navigable waters.
Verb:
Carry (a boat) between navigable waters: "they are incapable of portaging a canoe"; "they would only run the rapid if they couldn't portage".

qualms plural of qualm (Noun)
Noun:
An uneasy feeling of doubt, worry, or fear; a misgiving.
A momentary faint or sick feeling.

vi·car·i·ous/vīˈkerēəs/
Adjective:
Experienced in the imagination through the feelings or actions of another person: "vicarious pleasure".
Acting or done for another: "a vicarious atonement".

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Perfectly planning on not planning at all,
sitting in peace for once, seems like a stall.
All this fuel building up to only hold near,
not dispensing it because of my fears.

Purposefully planning on allowing my purpose,
dutifully stopping advances to the circus
of marketing, fishing, fully disowning,
the need to be more than a soul who is spawning
a new batch of freer more effortless blossoms
who wait in the sun for the right match, no qualms.

No control, no more calculating the shortage,
of other's expecting my efforts to foliage
their drier and barren branches exposed
to drier and more barren economic woes.

I'll simply allow myself to be well carried
the Universe bleeds with this tower of passage,
this stream of sure progress even where dry,
even where we have stopped just to ask why.
Why are we here now and what is our purpose,
to love and to radiate. Our portage? Vicarious.

--EVE Featherstone